An emotional night
It's 2 something am and I still tak boleh nak tidur. Masa buat old course, that's normal and waktu macam ni still awal. Malam masih muda, Hehe. Tiba-tiba rasa emotional, after watching this one movie for the third time ( I guess), I still tak boleh move on from being emotional. Rasa sayu and emotional sangat. Effect dia, I played jiwang songs, being emotional, and I can't sleep until now!!
Hmm.. Btw, life kat sini sini sem ni, okay :) At first takut jugak en nak masuk law, yelah, selalu dengar-dengar orang cakap budak law tulah ni lah. But actually they are not pun! Kelakar adalah. Haha. Tapi ya, tak semua macam tu kan. Yang kerek pun ada. Tapi for now, yang kerek tu baru jumpa sorang. I think she's not that kerek pun, cuma tak berapa nak bergaul kot. Err err. Tapi yg lain lainnn, fun sangat!
Nak cakap pasal my other friends, weh.... sedih ok. Ada kawan yang dulu rapat, selalu contact, tapi sekarang senyap je. Contact pun kalau nak apa apa ke, or..... ada yang tak contact langsung. I know everyone is so busy with their new lives, new people. Tapi, what can I do. I dah selalu mulakan conversation. And kadang rasa macam I je yang selalu lebih2. Sobs. Rindu yang dulu-dulu, when life was so good, having good friends, yang I panggil diaorang true friends, skype apa semua. Rindunya!! Sekarang pun still ada je yang contact, cuma tak kerap macam dulu. But that's okay, sekarang kan masing-masing tengah busy
But ada yang I text just wanna know about her health and stuff pun dia layan tak layan je. Weh I sedihlah, serious. I know, I'm bad. Tapi cuma nak balas balik your kindness, what you had done to me masa my late father passed away, you were there for me, and bila you're not fine, I nak, nak help you. Maybe I can't do much but at least bagilah I peluang, untuk dengar you and tenangkan you. Like you did to me before. But when you layan tak layan serious I sedih. </3 </3 I know, it's hard for you, I know you pun stress, but at least jangan buat macam ni. I saw you're happy replying your friends' comments on instagram, uploading your friend's picture and saying things about her and you seemed so happy. Tapi when you balas macam tu je kat I, I feel like.. Ya Allah. </3
Maybe, I pernah buat salah ke apa. If I really did, forgive me.. Forgive me. ;(